disposable diaries: shapeshifting for a spinning sphere

So often I feel as though I need to shape shift to fit in with the rest of the world, that being myself isn’t good enough, do you feel the same? I believe in who I am and who I’m not, I’m confident in my values, in my future, in my personality, and yet I often still feel the need to change, to fit in with the world around me. When I catch myself beginning to "shape shift" I wonder why? Why do I feel the need to change who I am for a spinning globe with 7 million not-perfect people.


Ralph Waldo Emerson once said “To be yourself in a world that is constantly trying to make you something else is the greatest accomplishment.” I find that the world is constantly expecting you to change, grow, become a “better version” of yourself and even though growing and changing is not all bad, sometimes we forget to be content in who we are in between the change. There is also no clear definition of the "who" in the world, no one person in the world that remains to see you through the becoming of yourself. The measuring stick always changes. If you are trying to fit in with "everyone else" it is always changing, much like the clouds in the sky.


You hear the words best, better, or greatest tossed around quite a bit, and when those words come into play usually someone isn’t saying you ARE the best, they may be saying you could be, you were, or simply and most often, you're not. If our greatest gift is love, if love is more powerful then a sword, then why can’t the world show love to us? Or maybe we are putting a job title on the world that it was never supposed to have, maybe the world was never meant to love us.


You might say that we can’t rely on the world to accept you which I would respond, that’s true, but then I would ask you, why can’t we even manage to show love to ourselves? If being yourself in a world that is constantly trying to change you is the greatest accomplishment, then we all have much work to do.